Mother found!!

These eyes have finally found there resting place, it is within the other, the lifebearer. My heart and mind finally find there well that has been slowly running dry over this time. If only others outside of us could grasp the significance of these moments, and savor like I. But that is not there reward nor there privilege, that has been reserved and bestowed upon me. For this is ours, others have had there fill of these privileges, and have taken them for granted all there life, complaining about there lot, and not viewing the privilege of knowing ones flesh. This is my right, and words of others pertaining to this circumstance have no relevance to me or my mind, it is like the wind whispering in my ear only to recede into nothingness. A boy named AJ said many things of nonunderstanding due to these above mentioned words, and he speaks from an empty place, as of not knowing or really caring for another. There are many naysayers walking about, who use there pseudo intellect as if it has any bearing or weight at all. These ones leave a distastefull lingering feel in my heart, as if not knowing why I consider them at all. I do not really. I am tired of considering the inconsiderable, with there wretched twisted tongues oozing bile from the inside with no remorse. Does it really matter? I think not. For everyone has dissipated back unto the ground, and the only thing that is left for now is us. Should I feel guilty, only the selfish at heart feel that I should, for they really know better, but deny themselves because of there pity. The golden box with key is finally starting to open, and It is mine, for I have analyzed, felt, beheld it all my life, and It belongs to no other now but I. Even having a private conversation with this woman of my life is offending to some, but what do these offences have to do with me, and are they even really logical, or a ploy for control over the mind and heart, like training a lap dog. I will not stand for these people in life anymore, and one day they will be destroyed by a force in which they cannot even perceive as of now. But they will. There own selfish first destroying them by all the destitute emotions that skate around themselves, keeping them from true happiness. Oh but they have a choice, they just do not choose to make it, lingering in the well of despair and self loathing. It is really just the two of us now Mother, this time for awhile will just be ours, for it belongs to us, and is a royal gift that I will not turn down. I will not only die for this gift, but will kill for it to, it is that important, really the most important event that will ever happen to me as a human. Although I know myself, this is the last step in fully knowing myself. For all the exasperating nitpickers out there of course one fully knows oneself(relatively speaking) when one is dead, but hey Im not really concerned about you now am I? Yes I have found you, and this will change me forever!!